Letter 2018July14 New Course

My Beautiful Soulmate

This letter is mostly about my first day of building maintenance, it was pretty cool.  I look forward to getting started.building

I hope this letter finds you all well and blessed! I figured since, I can’t see you or call you today I would write.  I am sure we will talk about most of these things tomorrow but, just in case you could not make it I will update you before Weds.


When I complete this class I will have all the knowledge to construct a basic house from ground to roof top and pass inspection.

Our instructor let us know he has a good friend who owns a construction company.  His company not only does stick built homes on site but builds prefab homes. His friend has and will hired former students our instructor sends him.  Pay isn’t great but pay is $15.00 to $18.00 per hour to start.

This would help us out and its a good job that’s not seasonal.  His only things are no drugs, be reliable and don’t steal – perfect for me.  That’s around $600 per week until we get a business open.

I can build our tiny homes for material cost.  Also basic solar is part of this course, masonry, carpentry, electrical, foundation, plumbing, drywall, appliance installation, roofing, windows, weather proofing, etc. is all part of this course.  Everything I need to know. The basics of each thing build all to code.

I am very excited!  God always answers!  My week is packed full this class, celebrate recovery, bible study, etc.

I have a couple more classes I am waiting to hear back from.  This vocation and job opportunity is very good news!  I could commute for a year or so depending on our needs. Then, I can build, build, build on our land.  I can’t wait to get started. I will scoot for now my love. I love, miss, appreciate and adore you very much!  xoxoxoxo please give my love to mom and the kiddos


His Creation Can Be Creative


Be Creative!

My beginning was His creation.

I come from a family of bakers, my grandfather started the legacy then, he passed it to my father and my uncle and they passed it onto their spouses and then their children.

Because, I have fond memories of being a daughter of a particular baker; my father. I would like to pass along my journey as a daughter of a baker and as a child that once was lost, but, has since been found.

We were created with a purpose and for a purpose.

  • Wondering what my/your purpose is?
  • Have you done something in particular that you like when it comes to other people?
  • What does God want to do through me?
  • Why was (ingredient) or (you) created for?
  • Was it to feed or fuel us?

Allow Me To Illustrate

Beginning with Baking Ingredients

Baking ingredients have multiple uses and there are some ingredients that do not do well together. There are some ingredients that can cause some pretty bad outcomes. Forgetting an ingredient can cause something to not rise, sink or sulk.

Cake Decorating Creation

Whether it is decorating a baked cake or covering up a mistake, the mistake is still there. We may have covered it up but,  know that” the cover up is only temporary. We think that not seeing the mistake it will remain hidden, well I have some news for you!

Decorating Icing Has Its Purpose

When you ice over a torn piece of cake, you will need to use a whole lot of icing to cover it up.  If you are using spatula you will need to have the right amount of icing and the right consistency of the icing.   All in hope that you will not cause the cake to crumble more, these decorating cover ups (mistakes) are much like our sins.

Icing Crumbs

Upon the first attempt you may get a lot of cake crumbs mixed up in your icing.  Know that these crumbs are still being exposed.  The multiple icing layers may cover up the mistake for a short span of time.  Sooner or later the icing will start giving way.  The icing will pull away from the cake because, the damaged area had no foundation to hold onto.

Eventually, the cake will crumble and the covered piece will fall away.  This is much like our life experiences, you know the things that we kept hidden, deep inside of us.

Where should we start?

Cake Foundation

The cake must be on a hard surface so we can move it with out it crumbling. Our life, must have a firm foundation too and that firm foundation is God!


What do you want your cake to look like?  Does the cake contents matter more than the exterior decoration?  How do we become a new creation? We must spend time reading the bible.  Eventually you will learn why things have happened and continue to happen.  If you want to change that you too can by becoming a new creation.

I reached the breaking point

What should I be focused on?

Its my day off today and I can’t help but, think about what transpired prior to my breaking point.

I work for someone who causes utter craziness in our department.

It’s been a rough year to say the least!

Although, I know there is a purpose in all this.

I’m trying not to get caught up in what continues to manifest.

Unsettling Patterns

Have you ever worked with someone that is all over the place in their thoughts and actions?  How did that work out for you?  I would like to be perfectly honest and tell you that I hit my breaking point because, I am working an average of 10 to 12 hours a day, my phone is to be left on 24 hours a day, seven days a week.

I can do all this as long as I am in bed around 7:00 pm and I can sleep till around 5:00 am.  If my sleep time is decreased my body becomes weary and weak.  I believe its important to not let my exhaustion show when it comes to others.

Its Sunday, I am told that I have to drive out of town for work.  Meanwhile I was up at 4:40 am that day to go do my prison ministry. I had to come home and pack fast to hit the road. I had a 4 1/2 hour drive ahead of me. When I finally arrived around 11:30 pm that night.

It was nearly impossible to fall right asleep, my body needed time to shut down. I woke up exhausted because, this is not enough sleep time for me.  Plus, the turmoil I went through with my boss, basically, who was giving me an ultimatum.

The Mind

My mind would not shut off long enough for me to fall asleep or stay asleep.  So, lets just say I got about 3 hours of sleep that night.

After I did what I needed to do that next morning (which involved more craziness) due to my bosses inability to plan ahead.  I headed out. On my way home, my arms and hands started to tingle and felt numb so I decided it was important to pull over.  I notified my boss and our new officer via email.

As I sat in the car, my emotions started to pour out of me.  I asked God why and how can a person like this do this to me? I can’t deal with them any longer!  Why am I allowing them to affect my health and well being, this is unacceptable!

Eventually, I decided I was okay enough to get back on the road and as I was driving and listening to my radio (playing Christian music) or (listening to Christian preaching). I hoped it would get my mind off all that has manifested.

Shelter Me

As I continued driving I realized I wasn’t getting any better.  So, I started looking for shelter. As, I walked to the hotel registration I could barely stand.  I felt weak and weary and I was short of breath. I was blessed to be able to get a room. The summer months can be a bit challenging when it comes to hotel vacancy.

As soon as I got to my room and laid down I emailed my boss and our officer. I told them I needed to pull over and get some rest, I needed sleep and I don’t know what is going on with my arms, hands numbness and tingling.

Shortly, after the email went out the officer phoned me out of concern for my health and well-being.  I said, I am beyond exhausted and I need to take care of myself.  He asked if he could pray for me. I said, most definitely. He asked that I call him letting him know how I am feeling.

When In A Relationship

Love the Lord


Over a course of time we seem to loose the excitement and suspense in this thing we call a relationship.  Is that mostly because, we won each other over another person of choice?

  1. Now that we have won them over, where is the challenge?
  2. Why aren’t you seeking them out, or cherishing every waking moment with them (once you are married).
  3. Where is the passion you had for one another?
  4. Is this why so many want to be single, because, of the excitement of the unknown?
  5. What is thing called Love?
  6. Are their conditions, expectations when it comes to time together?

Noah – Blameless Servant Of God

wonderful light

Noahs Ark

Noah was a blameless servant of God.

We usually associate the word “freedom” with the right to live as we please and pursue our ambitions and dreams. However, Jesus spoke of a deeper aspect of freedom that pertains to the state of our souls. God wants to free us from every internal form of bondage that prevents us from becoming the person He created us to be. This kind of freedom is not achieved by war and revolution but by the knowledge of truth. Jesus said, “If you continue in My word, then you are truly disciples of Mine; and you will know the truth, and the truth will make you free” (John 8:31-32).

Source: Noah – Blameless Servant Of God

Workout Struggles

workout opportunities
Do I Have What I Need To Get This Workout Done?

Do I truly have what I need when it comes to my workout struggles?  I’m struggling to understand my inability to workout when, I have what I need to get the job done.  I know I need to workout somehow, someway and its only because, it makes me feel better.

Do you ponder the need to shower, washing or styling our hair? How about the need to get ready for another event taking place. How about living in a drought zone when you are charged for all the water you use.

Eventually, I talk my self out of working out after work because of the energy I get from it which would prevent me from getting a good nights sleep.

Work Gym

I have a gym at work and at home yet I struggle with using it.

Why my working out at work doesn’t work for me is because, I would get hot and sweaty.

Bringing workout clothes to work would allow me to change my clothes then, I can head home after my workout.  But, then I think about traffic so I tell myself I will work out when I get home.  When I arrive at home my home-life gets in the way; either because, I am exhausted, or because, I need to do household chores, make a meal or provide a meal for my family or its just pure laziness.

My Workout Struggles To Pay Or Not Pay

When I pay for a membership somewhere I push my self to workout because, of the money I am spending, so I need to get my dollars worth out of it.  Then, there is the question can I even afford to pay this fee to workout.  Then, I think about the long-term expense and yet there is the long-term benefit of working out.

God created this body, I need to take care of it period!  What I put in my body can cause good and bad outcomes.  In the long run, it can affect the span of my life.

Lord, I need help in maintaining a regular regimen.  I cannot do it on my own because, of all the reasons I have listed above.

Open My Eyes To Another Way Of Workout

Although, I enjoy walking among-st all Your beauty, I get to hear the birds chirping and see what you created; the trees, the flowers, the creatures crawling on the earth.

Then, I see what we created, the roads, signs, vehicles and structures that impede your beauty.

I even think about the weeds growing that are green and that don’t require our care and the weeds even look beautiful.

I know if I focused on myself as you have created me to be and accept it. Or, I can damage what was good or I can take care of what you created for good.

I think about all that is transpiring in this world right now.  There is so much pain and suffering going on in this world and in my body. Are the end of times at hand for this world and for my body or is this just the beginning?

Our physical being is what we are focusing on, we are focused on; how we look, what we wear and we have we have forgotten what we enjoy and the joy we get out of how we feel. How we feel has been shut down, because, we have to deal with what is here and now.  We have lost focus on our ultimate purpose which is life here and now.  When we have You and make You our daily focus we look forward to eternity with You.

So, it’s time to get to work and workout all that is manifesting in us and around us!

Revelation 21:4


Revelation 21:4

and He will wipe away every tear from their eyes; and there will no longer be any death; there will no longer be any mourning, or crying, or pain; the first things have passed away. Revelation 21:4